A couple of weeks ago I was ministering in St. Louis and while a friend of mine and I were in Ferguson praying I just kept feeling like God was saying, "Look Up". So, I looked up then.. but didn't really see much. Then as I pondered that word, I was reminded of the first part of Psalm 121 - " I lift my eyes to the hills.." My friend also got some scripture and in the evening when we were ministering it all kind of came together. I thought that was it, but I think God had more.
Look at thie entire Psalm:
1 I will lift up my eyes to the mountains;
From where shall my help come?
2 My help comes from the Lord,
Who made heaven and earth.
3 He will not allow your foot to slip;
He who keeps you will not slumber.
4 Behold, He who keeps Israel
Will neither slumber nor sleep.
5 The Lord is your keeper;
The Lord is your shade on your right hand.
6 The sun will not smite you by day,
Nor the moon by night.
7 The Lord will protect you from all evil;
He will keep your soul.
8 The Lord will guard your going out and your coming in
From this time forth and forever.
Ferguson has been under attack, but I think God was reminding them and me that He is the protector. Again, that is amazing and that time was amazing, but I just kept hearing the same thing.
So, about a week after I heard that, I found myself in need of help. It is funny because I spoke on my Father Wounds when I was in St. Louis and how that has affected my perception of God the Father in my life and my experience of him. One of those areas was in protection. For most of my life, I protected myself and had a hard time allowing God or understanding how HE could protect me. This meant that I was a bit hard and walled off and opearated a lot out of fear. Until about 10 years ago the Lord started to show me how He wanted to protect me; not just physically, but emotionally and spiritually. He wanted me to let down my shield and TRUST him to do the protecting.
So, if I look at Psalm 121 and interpret it with me in mind:
As I launch into the things that the Lord is calling me forward in...
He promises that He will not let my foot slip off the cliff that I am climbing.
He promises that He won't "check out" or fall alseep on me, but that HE is always attentive and always available.
He promises that He will keep me, He will protect me even from the heat of the sun (the sun is the good stuff that can just sometimes get to intense) and that the light will not hurt me... during the day or during the night- when I can see or when I can't.
He goes on to say that He protects me from evil to (my spirit) and that He KEEPs my soul (my mind, my will and my emotions are safe with Him)... no matter what I do. When I go out to work, to battle to engage the world and when I return home... He will guard me.
It is funny that in the last few weeks I have litterally felt a hand on my back and many of the earthly "Fathers" in my world have stepped forward and I have heard the Lord say, " I have your back".
So, when I am tempted to LOOK DOWN at the ground in shame, or LOOK AT others in blame, or even LOOK IN my heart at the pain... I am reminded to LOOK UP at my Father in Hope and Trust.
Can I encourage you that no matter where you are or what is going on in your life, you can Look Up. He is always there and always ready to receive you and work on your behalf.